Lessons on Love.
I need love. But I need to unlearn love first. For that, I need to strip out all that's covering me. From the senseless love notes to toxic expressions of love. I need to find myself shamelessly standing unclothed of love. This I need, to be born again with Love.
They say love is unconditional. That is true, but you can only experience that with your Lord. Man in his nature loves with conditions and that's okay. Imperfections need a bunch of conditions to live a life of normalcy.
Hence I need my Lord more than anyone else. No human can make me believe in illusions of intense love. Intensity lies within hearts that have experienced love from Al-Wadud.
To be loved by Allah is an experience for a conscious mind. Allah is The Protector, and every time we shift our priorities to people or things that bound to bring in the baggage of pain, Allah takes them away. Allah is The Wise. And so plans Allah makes are never flawed. They are beautifully fulfilling but limited to our intellect. Our ego gets hurt while reading the previous line, but that's the truth.
I had to explain to my fellow mates why I love Allah so much. How I find it easy to not blame Allah in anything? Why do I tend to be so sure of Allah? What is trust and how do I easily trust my lord? How come I don't complain about Allah to anyone? The list doesn't end.
But I chose to submit and let Allah's will take its course of action. And that makes me yearn for my Beloved more than anything. For the unconditional love that I am bestowed upon purely by Allah's mercy and compassion.
Alhamdulillah.