SUICIDE

SUICIDE

Posted by HIBA on 10:54 PM in poems,

What my fate turned out to be

Every time I step out,

I see something that doesn't belong here.

Something that was not to born here.

And that is when I recognize,

It is my own reflection.

Like an angel my mother brought me up,

But in return I could give was a devil.

Life never was vivid for me.

Every time I listen to the screams,

I even think I was to be killed.

Living like a dead body

Be nothing but my fate

Of all the beauty I have seen it was my

Mom’s eyes I fascinated,

She turned mad when she knew

Her only angel was not up to good

She ran over proving

That rumor was rumor

And for me to do was

To leave forever.

I was thrown by many, beaten by other.

Some took me for pleasure

while other to finish their anger.

Whatever it was I was skin and bone

Not knowing what to do

I walk around

Crying for what I lost

But the most

Was my mother....

At last I knew what to do

I found it near the river.

And that was what I did

Suicide...

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FAITH, WHERE ARE YOU?????

FAITH, WHERE ARE YOU?????

Posted by HIBA on 12:58 AM in articles,

Since the start of this year I had a familiar and a similar routine. But today there was a small change.

I was fasting today. Well for us Muslims it Sunnah to fast on Thursdays and Mondays. So today I woke up and cleaned up myself and walked straight to the kitchen and then I realized I was fasting. The other day I was really restless wondering how it would be for me to fast this summer in the desert land of Saudi Arabia. Well Alhamdulillah I managed and I really wish it goes the same in the month of Ramadan. I remember learning in my Qur’an classes that the main thing required is faith in our lord and I guess that is what helped me today.

This thought made me take to different times in my life when I had lost faith in my friends, family, my lord, me myself. To be honest if I had faith in me myself then maybe by now my first book would have been published. :(

We all tend to lose faith in ourselves easily. It could be a inner thing in us pulling us back and keeping us away from achieving it. I believe it’s the game of Satan because seeing us achieve something good is way out of Satan’s league!!

The thing is that achieving something good is always tough. First thing we need to have inside us is faith in our creator. I am an ardent believer of the quote that " NOT A LEAF MOVE WITHOUT GOD'S WILL". Well it is the truth. 

We all feel that we humans are the most powerful ones on this planet and that there is nothing impossible for us to do. I agree with this statement.  But something that we tend to forget or ignore is that without the ALMIGHTY nothing is possible and that everything is possible mainly because of our creator.

Having faith in our creator is not an easy step because we have to develop certain belief in us and it does not come easily. We need to believe that there exists something that is perfect and is GOD ALMIGHTY. Next thing is that praying to him asking for anything and everything that is acceptable. We people remember god only when we need him. This is something we have to change. So let us believe and pray to lord and develop faith in him first and then in ourselves.

After all there is nothing impossible with him around!!!

That is it for today folks and do include me in all your prayers!!! J

(I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO PUBLISH MY DIARY TOMORROW BECAUSE MY GRANNY IS FLYING BACK AND I WILL BE A BIT BUSTY THERE!! SOWWIE!! IN SHA ALLAH WILL POST SOON!! J )

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I WANT MORE AND MORE.......AND MORE!!!

I WANT MORE AND MORE.......AND MORE!!!

Posted by HIBA on 1:20 AM in articles,

Hello people, well I thought from today onward I will include a new stuff! And that is more like a diary. Well I would write down one thing that made me think on the specific day and share my views on that!

7/7/2013

My mom and I went to meet one of her friend who is also her student. I knew the woman as mom’s student but nothing more than that. We reached her home and I was shocked! The lady who smiled and who seems to be so satisfied with her life lives in a one bedroom apartment with two kids!!! I felt sad for them.

I started thinking about all the comforts of my life. I have a whole room that I still hate to share with my brother when that woman and her husband and her two kids sleep in one room! I have a study table, a bed that I don’t have to share with anyone and many other blessings from lord. I went back to all those times I was sitting and complaining about not having a better home when what I actually have is luxuries in reality.

Its normal for a human everyone say, to want more in life. We all are never satisfied with what exist in our hand but we want more. 

 It’s a fact, I agree. But can’t we actually bring a change to the fact. Can’t we actually keep away the greediness inside us? Shut it away and lock it up and never bring it back. We can change ourselves if we want to. After all nothing is impossible!!

So let us all try to bring a change into the world and let us learn to be happy with what we have!!!

That is it for today folks….hope I could spread a good message to you all!! J

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HIJAB, UNDERSTAND DON’T UNDERESTIMATE!!!

HIJAB, UNDERSTAND DON’T UNDERESTIMATE!!!

Posted by HIBA on 4:38 PM in articles,

Well I have been living my entire teenage life wearing a piece of cloth on my head which is called as the "hijab".
I was taught from young what women have to cover and what men should cover and yes the piece of cloth is important. But the thing is that the societies in general see this as a source of weapon to kill people or to oppress women and to restrict their freedom. The media has depicted woman who cover as old fashioned people or those who don’t have a value or class in this modern world.

The actual reason why Muslim woman cover them self up and tie a cloth around them self is not because they are afraid of the public or not because of fear of the opposite gender, it is just because they are listening to their lord and after all he knows the best.
Many Muslim sisters are afraid to follow the hijab fearing that the public might not accept them. Yes, it is tough to get into a famous company with that cloth on your head, it is going to be tough to sit among a group of friend wearing full sleeves, it is going to be tough to explain why you cover up like this.
But always we should remember that at the end it doesn’t matter if the public was happy but if Allah the almighty was happy.
When talking about men, lowering their gaze in front of a mahram is their hijab. Honestly speaking the hijab for men is really tough to follow because this is not a piece of cloth they have to wear but to put their eyes when they see a lady!!!
Many men have succeeded in fulfilling this but majority cannot. They might not even realize the fact that they are admiring a woman, because their hormones are jumping around!! When the hijab of a woman is something the world keeps on talking about the hijab of men are not. One thing we should realize is that these two hijab if properly followed can only lead to a better place. The female gender cannot expose them self and ask the men not to look at, that would be like keeping a bone in front if a dog and asking it not to touch!! Neither can the men ask the woman to cover her face or sit back at home so that they don’t have to the female specie anywhere out.

Another misunderstanding is about woman covering their face. Islam has not made it important for a woman to cover her face, it is totally her wish and liking and therefore if woman goes out in proper hijab without covering her face there is nothing she is going to be punished for. Moreover men have no right to force women to cover their face just because they have their hormone jumping all around. So to my brothers I want to tell that please just because you can’t lower your gaze don’t force women to cover up their face, and to all my Muslim sisters and brothers I want to tell one thing, the whole of mankind may reject you, but their creator has already accepted you!!!!

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What more…..

What more…..

Posted by HIBA on 9:55 PM in poems,

Breathtaking things happen in everyone’s time.

But luckiest like me get the preeminent!!

Gazing at the mirror I memorize all the fun,

When had when I was five, ten and fifteen.

Home is born as you both are there.

And love is constitutional because of your inhabitance.

My prayer for you both is to have a long life,

A life that hurts none and never hurts you.

Gifts in life are really unexpected,

But what did I do to have such miracle.

You both have educated me things I feel illogical,

And have helped me in all my collapses.

My love is out flowing, now and forever.

All thanks to you, I am born here,

What more can I anticipate….oh my parents!!

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FRIENDS INFLUENCE US??? OH YES....THEY DO!!! :)

FRIENDS INFLUENCE US??? OH YES....THEY DO!!! :)

Posted by HIBA on 2:26 AM in articles,

Hello!! Long since we met??? Well am back on track!!!

Thanks to a buddy of mine I thought of writing something for my blog, so here is a big thank you to RIA RAICHAUDHURI!!!

Well last week I was lying on my bed and thinking about what changed me from who I was to who I am now and I realized my friends are the ones and  also realized that the teenagers and the youth get influenced mainly by their friends. So if I take my example I was not a very good girl, well I am now!  The one who showed me the light and helped me to the right path is HAJER. Now she will never ever agree to this, she will tell me that it isn't her and stuff, but she is the reason I am who I am now!!!

When I talk about influencing it could be bad as well as good. We all have friends who we are close to or maybe just a friend or for namesake a friend!! We really should be careful with whom we become close to because unintentionally without our knowledge they will influence us in many ways. Some girls and guys try to eat and sit the way other friends in their group do and others who cut of their limits might even get into drugs and alcohol. It is natural for a boy or a girl to get influenced by his or her friends, because they are the ones they roam around and have most of their teen life and college life spent around with. So we should be a bit selective when it comes to friends. Now once we are into a bad group of friends we might not realize the fact that we are into no good and we feel what we are doing now is right, but later when we are to live a life and start earning and stuff we will surely have the hangover of this influence and can never have a good life. Now when I mean to say we move away from the bad group doesn't mean we hate them, we should at the same time try to make them see the difference between what is good and what is bad.

I am one of the luckiest girls who have a good bunch of friends around me!! I have friends like Hajer who would show me what is write and help me learn more about my religion and Rasha to make me laugh always and even though she is so immature knows what her limit is and so told me too that have fun, but in your limits and last but not the least My POOH FAMILY who taught me some beautiful lessons like:

1.       BE POSITIVE

2.       BE YOURSELF

3.       BE HAPPY

4.       SMILE ALWAYS

5.       DON’T BOTHER IF PEOPLE MAKE FUN OF YOU

6.       LOVE YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS

7.       HAVE FAITH IN GOD

8.       WHAT SO EVER HAPPENS BE STRONG

9.       ETC….ETC…ETC….

An important lesson out of all which two of my friend from my “pooh family” taught was:

1.       Don’t get offended if people are going to correct you, take it as an advice (THANK YOU RIA AND SHIFA)

We may not notice, but we always tend to please them rather than being ourselves, which is literally bad for us in our future. I always believe that having one friend whom will help us in finding the right path is better than to have hundreds of friends who happened to choose you as their friend only if u fit in their checklist. So before you regret just sit back and think about what type of friends are you with!!

So that is for now!!!

Salaam, Adios…………… :)

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BEAUTY OF ME!!

BEAUTY OF ME!!

Posted by HIBA on 5:39 PM in poems,

Beauty of my eyes is not the long lashes,

But the good I see.

Beauty of my nose is not the perfect length,

But the gorgeous scent I smell.

Beauty of my lip is not the cute color,

But the words I speak.

Beauty of my body is not what I highlight,

But the way I cover it like pearls under sea.

Beauty of my heart is not only the pure blood,

But a heart that touches and feels.

Beauty of me is not my lifestyle,

But the positive in me!!

HIBA FAROOK (HBZ) ©

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