Saturday, July 27, 2013

SUICIDE

What my fate turned out to be
Every time I step out,
I see something that doesn't belong here.
Something that was not to born here.
And that is when I recognize,
It is my own reflection.
Like an angel my mother brought me up,
But in return I could give was a devil.
Life never was vivid for me.
Every time I listen to the screams,
I even think I was to be killed.
Living like a dead body
Be nothing but my fate
Of all the beauty I have seen it was my
Mom’s eyes I fascinated,
She turned mad when she knew
Her only angel was not up to good
She ran over proving
That rumor was rumor
And for me to do was
To leave forever.
I was thrown by many, beaten by other.
Some took me for pleasure
while other to finish their anger.
Whatever it was I was skin and bone
Not knowing what to do
I walk around
Crying for what I lost
But the most
Was my mother....
At last I knew what to do
I found it near the river.
And that was what I did
Suicide...

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

FAITH, WHERE ARE YOU?????


Since the start of this year I had a familiar and a similar routine. But today there was a small change.
I was fasting today. Well for us Muslims it Sunnah to fast on Thursdays and Mondays. So today I woke up and cleaned up myself and walked straight to the kitchen and then I realized I was fasting. The other day I was really restless wondering how it would be for me to fast this summer in the desert land of Saudi Arabia. Well Alhamdulillah I managed and I really wish it goes the same in the month of Ramadan. I remember learning in my Qur’an classes that the main thing required is faith in our lord and I guess that is what helped me today.
This thought made me take to different times in my life when I had lost faith in my friends, family, my lord, me myself. To be honest if I had faith in me myself then maybe by now my first book would have been published. :(
We all tend to lose faith in ourselves easily. It could be a inner thing in us pulling us back and keeping us away from achieving it. I believe it’s the game of Satan because seeing us achieve something good is way out of Satan’s league!!

The thing is that achieving something good is always tough. First thing we need to have inside us is faith in our creator. I am an ardent believer of the quote that " NOT A LEAF MOVE WITHOUT GOD'S WILL". Well it is the truth. 
We all feel that we humans are the most powerful ones on this planet and that there is nothing impossible for us to do. I agree with this statement.  But something that we tend to forget or ignore is that without the ALMIGHTY nothing is possible and that everything is possible mainly because of our creator.
Having faith in our creator is not an easy step because we have to develop certain belief in us and it does not come easily. We need to believe that there exists something that is perfect and is GOD ALMIGHTY. Next thing is that praying to him asking for anything and everything that is acceptable. We people remember god only when we need him. This is something we have to change. So let us believe and pray to lord and develop faith in him first and then in ourselves.
After all there is nothing impossible with him around!!!
That is it for today folks and do include me in all your prayers!!! J

(I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO PUBLISH MY DIARY TOMORROW BECAUSE MY GRANNY IS FLYING BACK AND I WILL BE A BIT BUSTY THERE!! SOWWIE!! IN SHA ALLAH WILL POST SOON!! J )

Monday, July 8, 2013

I WANT MORE AND MORE.......AND MORE!!!

Hello people, well I thought from today onward I will include a new stuff! And that is more like a diary. Well I would write down one thing that made me think on the specific day and share my views on that!

7/7/2013

My mom and I went to meet one of her friend who is also her student. I knew the woman as mom’s student but nothing more than that. We reached her home and I was shocked! The lady who smiled and who seems to be so satisfied with her life lives in a one bedroom apartment with two kids!!! I felt sad for them.
I started thinking about all the comforts of my life. I have a whole room that I still hate to share with my brother when that woman and her husband and her two kids sleep in one room! I have a study table, a bed that I don’t have to share with anyone and many other blessings from lord. I went back to all those times I was sitting and complaining about not having a better home when what I actually have is luxuries in reality.

Its normal for a human everyone say, to want more in life. We all are never satisfied with what exist in our hand but we want more. 
 It’s a fact, I agree. But can’t we actually bring a change to the fact. Can’t we actually keep away the greediness inside us? Shut it away and lock it up and never bring it back. We can change ourselves if we want to. After all nothing is impossible!!
So let us all try to bring a change into the world and let us learn to be happy with what we have!!!


That is it for today folks….hope I could spread a good message to you all!! J

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